A Birth Mother's Addiction Recovery Journey That Defied All Odds
In 1999, Monica was homeless, battling drug addiction, and couldn't care for her existing four-year-old son when she discovered she was pregnant again. Today, she holds a master's degree in healthcare administration, has traveled internationally to study healthcare systems, and maintains a unique 26-year relationship with both her birth son and his adoptive mother. Her extraordinary transformation story, featured on the Choosing Adoption podcast with host Donna Pope and co-host Nathan Gwilliam, challenges every assumption about birth mothers and demonstrates what's possible when adoption becomes the catalyst for complete life reconstruction.
Monica's journey offers rare insights into modern open adoption relationships, which now represent 95% of all domestic infant adoptions, according to the Adoption Network. Her experience with Donna Pope, owner of Heart to Heart Adoptions, who became her son's adoptive mother, created an unprecedented living arrangement that broke traditional adoption protocols yet established the foundation for a thriving decades-long relationship. A research report on PMC suggests that, approximately 600,000 college students describe themselves as "IN RECOVERY" from substance use disorders, Monica's path through addiction recovery to academic achievement reflects broader trends showing education's central role in sustained recovery and life rebuilding.
The Decision That Started Everything
Monica's circumstances in 1999 represented the most challenging scenario possible for someone facing an unplanned pregnancy. Living without stable housing, employment, or necessities while actively using drugs, she had already lost custody of her four-year-old son Aaron to family members. The reality was undeniable - if she couldn't adequately care for one child, managing the second seemed impossible. This practical assessment, combined with her growing recognition that she needed help, led her to research adoption agencies.
The initial process proved frustrating as Monica contacted several adoption organizations but felt dismissed during early conversations. Many agencies treated her more like a problem to manage than a person in crisis needing support. The stigma surrounding both addiction and unplanned pregnancy created additional barriers, leaving her feeling judged rather than supported during an already overwhelming time. This experience reflects broader challenges in adoption services, where women in crisis situations often encounter systems designed more for convenience than compassion.
When Monica reached Heart to Heart Adoptions and spoke with owner Donna Pope, the response differed markedly. Rather than subjecting her to lengthy screening processes, Donna offered immediate practical assistance, including arranging transportation to Utah where Monica could receive proper prenatal care and comprehensive support. This approach aligns with Adoption Network research showing that two-thirds of birth parents continue post-placement contact with their adoptees, suggesting that relationship-based approaches often yield better long-term outcomes for everyone involved.
The Unconventional Living Arrangement That Built Trust
The relationship between Monica and Donna developed through circumstances that shattered every traditional adoption protocol. Monica came to stay at Donna's condo during her final months of pregnancy, creating an unprecedented living situation that allowed for genuine relationship building rather than artificial interactions. For Monica, this period provided experiences she hadn't known in years - stability, safety, regular meals, and treatment with dignity rather than judgment. This environment enabled her to focus on her health and prepare mentally for the upcoming birth, which research shows is critical since fewer than one infant out of every 200 born each year are placed for adoption by birth mothers.
Choosing an adoptive family typically represents one of the most stressful aspects of the adoption process for birth mothers. Monica describes reviewing profile books filled with families who appeared perfect on paper but felt disconnected from her lived reality. Her first potential match involved a family dealing with unexpected job loss, while her second contact was managing a seriously ill child. When immediate matches proved elusive, Donna made an unexpected suggestion - what if she adopted the baby herself? This proposal initially concerned Monica, who wanted assurance the decision stemmed from a genuine desire to parent rather than convenience.
The extended time together allowed Monica and Donna to develop authentic connections based on observed character rather than curated presentations. Monica could witness Donna's values, decision-making processes, and daily interactions firsthand, providing confidence in her choice that traditional matching processes rarely achieve. This foundation proved essential for navigating complex emotions and situations that would arise over the following decades, supporting FindLaw research indicating that birth mothers with open adoptions report significantly higher satisfaction rates compared to those with closed adoptions.
The Recovery Journey That Defied All Odds
Monica's path to sobriety wasn't immediate or linear, reflecting the reality that recovery rarely follows predictable timelines. Despite making what she believed was the right decision for her birth son Josh, she continued struggling with addiction for approximately two years after his birth, experiencing periods in both jail and rehabilitation facilities. However, the seeds of transformation planted during her time in Utah, combined with her growing desire to become someone Josh could be proud of, provided motivation that sustained her through multiple recovery attempts.
The breakthrough came when Monica entered a recovery program while incarcerated, surrounded by other women sharing similar desires to change their lives fundamentally. She found both peer support and spiritual grounding that would anchor her long-term recovery efforts, including a friendship with a fellow recovering addict that continues today. This experience aligns with NPR research showing that about 75% of people who develop an addiction do recover, though the path often requires multiple attempts and comprehensive support systems.
Upon her release, Monica immediately relocated to Oregon to reunite with her older son Aaron, who had been living with family members during her absence. The moment of reunion became a turning point that reinforced her commitment to her new path - after four years of separation, Aaron simply ran to her calling "Mom" as if no time had passed. With sobriety established, Monica pursued education with the same determination she had applied to recovery, eventually earning both bachelor's and master's degrees in healthcare administration through a full-ride scholarship from the Ford Family Foundation.
Building a Modern Open Adoption Success Story
Maintaining healthy relationships within adoption arrangements requires careful attention to boundaries, expectations, and evolving dynamics as children grow into adulthood. Monica and Donna established communication patterns that respected everyone's needs while allowing for genuine connection and ongoing relationship building. Rather than frequent contact that might confuse Josh about his family structure, they developed a rhythm of calls every six to eight months where Monica could ask caring questions about Josh's wellbeing, development, and place within the family.
The relationship reached a transformative milestone when Josh was thirteen, and the families encountered each other during a layover in Utah. This unplanned meeting allowed Monica to witness Josh interacting naturally with his adoptive family, observing firsthand that he had found his place and genuinely belonged. Seeing normal family dynamics, complete with typical sibling behavior and parental management, helped alleviate much of the guilt Monica had carried about her decision. The experience confirmed that Josh was thriving in an environment she could never have provided.
Key elements that contributed to their successful long-term relationship include:
Clear communication about roles and expectations from the beginning
Respect for primary family relationships and parental authority
Natural evolution of contact patterns as circumstances changed
Focus on Josh's wellbeing above adult comfort levels or preferences
Flexibility to adapt arrangements as Josh developed his own preferences
Honest handling of difficult topics, including birth father safety concerns
As Josh has entered adulthood, he's begun making his own choices about contact levels that feel comfortable, including visiting Monica for holidays and maintaining occasional communication. This natural progression demonstrates how successful open adoption relationships can evolve to meet changing needs while maintaining the benefits of extended family connections.
Your Adoption Journey Starts With Real Stories
Monica's experience on the Choosing Adoption podcast represents exactly the kind of authentic, complex adoption narrative that can help birth mothers and adoptive families make informed decisions about their own paths forward. Her transformation from someone who was literally unemployable due to addiction to a healthcare professional with international experience demonstrates that adoption decisions can serve as catalysts for positive life changes. With 29.3 million U.S. adults reporting they have resolved a significant substance use problem according to the Recovery Research Institute, Monica's story reflects broader recovery trends showing lasting change remains possible even from the most challenging circumstances.
Whether you're facing an unplanned pregnancy, hoping to grow your family through adoption, or working as an adoption professional, Monica's story emphasizes that successful outcomes depend more on genuine commitment to relationship building and child welfare than following rigid protocols. Her experience proves that even the most difficult circumstances can lead to beautiful, life-changing outcomes when guided by courage to make difficult decisions for the right reasons.
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